Hey HNC, i read your situation, sorry your here but i along with everyone else here am here with you.
Let me show you the first thing i read when i read your post...
"definetly not easy. I spent the first 4 weeks of our seperation basically begging her to stop seeing him so that we could have a dignified seperation and divorce if that's what it came too.
LOL
What a WUSS.
You know it's me time... it's time for me to be daddy of the year and get back the bravado that I had when she met me. She got so turned on by how confident that I was. The first time I asked her out ... I said... So... when are we going out and she laughed and I said .. no really... when..? And it was on from there.
I have read in markhavingprobs - drop the rope... and I get something LOUD and clear right now... She is DEEP into an emotional and sexual (admitted) affair right now ... has told me that she loves him and that if I had treated her better that she never would have strayed. Well you know what? I deserve better!
So she wants to play a game... well baby I am the gamemaster. First up... NEW ME... Second up... MOVING ON... and if she doesn't do a 180 herself... batting 3rd will be GAME OVER.
I know everyday I won't be as confident as today but today I am feeling it. As a family member of mine said... kill her with kindness bombs and move on."
Man you layed it all out there in this post....this is powerful this is what is in your heart not some BS you put in a post for everyone to read... it is obvious that you love your W....i have put this post in a notepad so when i feel like caving i come back and read it....
I myself am a rookie in this Game...i never thought i would even be playing this Game but i am here...I have been reading and posting and ?'ing every possible outcome, what should i do, what can i do...and then i read your post and I was enlightened.
You my friend know what needs to be done...
"So she wants to play a game... well baby I am the gamemaster. First up... NEW ME... Second up... MOVING ON... and if she doesn't do a 180 herself... batting 3rd will be GAME OVER."
You are the GameMaster...first up new you...work on you, I know easier said than done...I got myself back in the gym, ive found the hardest part is getting there when all i want to do is turn all the lights off close all the blinds and and sleep this sh*t off. Work on you, You are the GameMaster read your first post when you start to ? yourself.
Just my $0.02, not worth much but hope it helps....Later and keep fighting the good fight
