confused.....want to do something.....

[judyc]

orchid1,

I am so sorry that all this is happening to you, and you feel so bad. I am new at this too, so I don't know how much help I can offer. Ya know what helps me cope when all else fails? I like watching the Foodnetwork. I find it very relaxing to sit back and just watch other people cook these delicious meals! If you get cable, I recommend watching a few episodes - it may make you feel just a little better...