Gosh, I feel so much better after reading your and Orchid1's posts.
While I am experiencing intense pain right now, my H moving out was really a good thing for me. I have been doing alot of reflecting (what else is there to do when you are alone in a hotel room, and the movies on cable are $14!!), and I have learned that I have become someone I did not like very much. Had to do with the fact that while working my day job, I started another business in my spare time. I started taking things too seriously, stopped being fun, stopped enjoying myself. Work, work, work. Two years ago I got sick of the entreprenaurial thing, so I am back to working just my corporate day job. But, that did not change the fact that I did not like myself. I think the only way for me to once again like myself was for him to leave.
I badly want my M to work, but I realize I first have to fix me (and H has to fix himself).
My H came to the hotel and hooked up a DVD player he had at work. So, tonight, I am going to watch Yes Man!
Me: 48 H: 47 M: 16 years Separated: 4/24/09 3 cats, no kids My Story
