If you are so injured and drained of patience by her past responses, the affair, etc that every setback causes you to lose hope and faith in her as a person or at least in her intentions toward you ... I understand.
Maybe that IS where I am. Maybe that's why my fuse is so short now.
I wouldn't doubt the sincerity of last weekend based on her current pullback, EXCEPT for the fact that she's done this a half a dozen times before, and always when some gun is to her head. This week, it was our 2nd appt. with the mediator (scheduled for today), and we were to talk to our sons (tomorrow). It's like she reaches out to me, tries to see if my heart is still hers, then -- once assured -- she pulls away again. And she ONLY does this when faced with some ugly consequences.
My head hurts. My heart hurts. I'm completely and utterly embarrassed to face my parents, siblings and close friends who have witnessed no less than FIVE "on-again/off-again" flip-flops from me.
