"Puppy, your sitch is confusing to me. On the one hand, I know you love her so much and every time there is a chance at a full reconciliation you are elated. On the other hand, you seem to be so full of contempt for her and truly feel she is an entitled beast."
DQ makes another great point...
Puppy, it has often seemed to me that you externalize your hurt by becoming very critical of your W as well.
What if you instead actually say outloud, though it can be to yourself, a few times in a confident and sincere voice: "I was so hurt last night after I exposed by heart to W and got nothing back. I wanted to feel love and instead I felt a desparate emptiness. I was soooo sad and scared. It really is terrifying to open myself to these emotional risks, but it is my choice, and I think the risks are worth it because of the potential for a great M that I see."
