d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Thursday was my day to get d-4 from daycare. B4 I left work my H texted me that he would like to come over to see D-4. (he just saw her the day before) I said ok, he also told me he had the new lawn mower blades for me and he would come over to put on. I thanked him. He got to the house and put on and mowed the lawn for me which is a 2 hour job. D-4 and I played hide & seek w/him and he was mowing & laughing. (wow !!)

After mowing, he wanted to take a shower at the house. He was singing in the shower (silly songs to my daughter) we were all laughing. D-4 asked H if he was going to spend the night with mommy and would he be here when she woke up. He said yes. I knew he wasn't because he was going out with friends.

After D-4 went to bed, he ate some leftover chicken. We really talked. He talked about work and I only agreed with the aha's and umm's. He told me that one of his friends (the one he was going to the bar with) was going to file for D on his wife soon. My H told me she didn't pay house payments or car payments and husband found out. I only said I hate to see them go thru a divorce, maybe they will find a way to work it out. Then I said at least I made sure that all our bills were paid and our credit rating stayed good. He agreed and said I did a good job with that.

He has been losing weight and he always makes note of it. He had some new pants on and he said, are these too tight?? and do I look ok. Oh boy, I bit my tongue and told him. You look great and that you should be very proud of the accomplishment that you made by losing all that weight. I told him, I know how hard it is to do but when it's done a person feels alot better. He was just smiling at me.

He had to leave (his friend was waiting)and then it happened and I almost fell over. I walked him to the door and told him again thanks for mowing lawn and changing blades. He gave me a kiss on the lips and a huge hug. Oh my, I hung onto him and again thanked him for everything, and kissed him on the cheek. He told me to have a good night and he'd text me friday. I told him to have a good time.

I felt so good when he left, I thanked the Lord for the opportunity that he gave my husband & myself. If even for a moment, it was a huge step on both our parts !!! I remember one time he told me that he doesn't kiss on the lips anymore to anyone !!

Please any feedback !! I know I need to stay calm and not get to excited over this but I have to admit my heart is fluttering once again