Game Over?

[dday101798]

Journalizing:

Spoke with STBX last night. I felt the need to call her as her attorney had not yet talked to mine, thus no paperwork was forwarded off. I asked her what time her meeting with her attorney was, she said 4-4:30pm, so I suggested that she contact her attorney early this morning to call mine for copies of the drafted paperwork.

She began to query what they contained. T told her pretty much what is to be expected. You and I don't have much left possession wise as it was all abondoned at the house, so basically what you have is what you keep (minus my vital records I requested one more time), and whatever debts that linger are the repsonibility of whomeever's name they are in (mostly mine), and as far as the kids go, I will cover their insurances still, we will have parenting descision making but they will live with you, and so on.

To which I'm met with, "what about us?". "Do we need mediation?". I tell her no, if we agree before hand, no mediation and as I said, everybody goes their own way with only our kids being the common interest, basically once signed, the last 11 years never happened. (Not said out of cruelty, she has made a point time and time again to thank me for 'waisting a decade of her life').

oddly, that depressed her. She then got into conversation about the house, saying that she got her car fixed and wanted to put it in the garage, but the renter had 2 cars already in it. And how it upset her that on the very same day I left the house, the renter had moved himself in to what was our bedroom, using our furniture, dishes, everything. Tiptoeing around arguement, I left it at, that is your father's doing and you should address that with him. I have given up trying to recover what possession I have left there, and will NEVER set another foot on that property.

Conversation ended. She put boys on the phone and that was it. I reminded S10 that it was his great-grandmother's bithday adn it be nice he call her. S12 was stand offish again and would not talk to anyone. Shortly after hanging up, STBX called and asked if I had called my grandmother, and I said yes. STBX said, "ok, she sounded upset saying only 2 people called her all day". All I could think was 'she's probably upset having to talk to you', No, I didn't say it, just thought it. She reminded again of S10's play this morning i should be at right now. Unfortunately, things are messed up at work, and my radio in the truck this morning was spitting out one song after another of breaking up, situations ending, and my favorite, "too late to apologize". So suffice it to say, I am not of stable mind to be there at the moment.