I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. You are going through a lot of really hard things. Don't really know what to say, except stay strong and you will come out on the other side. Funny how they want the D so badly, then try to drag it along. Mine did/is doing the same thing.
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher
