I read "fear". Anxiety because you feel "this HAS to be it". You still try to provoke an "awakening". At least that is what I see. And I know the feeling and understand it. It is scary. But Bbj, both of us have been living without our Hs for so long, I need to believe it is all going to be easier that what we think, if we come to the end of our Ms. xxxxx K
