bizarre.... for about two hours I felt like my bubble (that imaginary space surrounding you) was crashing in on me. funny how you can do all the math and convince yourself that life will be better without someone...but as soon as you interact with them it all comes crashing down on you.... and the pressure is unbelievable.
I want my life back!
but then things start to get better. AND (to our new friend orchid) they do....
Wife called me and told me she needed some time at work because she has to counsel several people on the night shift. (this one is for you MLC because I do listen to you) She wants me to watch my daughter for a couple of hours so she can take care of her business needs. I told her that if that was the case then I'l just take daughter for the night. she responded that I didn't need to do that and I told her that if I was going to watch her during the hectic part of the evening then I'll just keep her through the night. let me know what you want to do? You're right MLC taking care of my kids is parenting BUT helping my wife out is babysitting...so I split the difference... thanks for your insight!!!!!!
So my wife called me last night as I got home from the airport and talked about problems she is having at work knowing I just texted my daugher to say hi to daughter.
So tonight I met wife at recital and kind of ignored her as we did the swap off (don't like that word because my daughter is a person not an item). and wife stays to tell me about her day.
Then on the way home my daughter needs some stuff from the house. I walk her down to the side walk and stay there while daughter goes in to get her stuff. Wife comes out to me to talk. Odd? then she tells me more of the problems she is dealing with. she starts crying and I grab her and say it will be okay. Call me if you need to talk. I didn't really have any emotion.... I mean if you read my posts I am kind of not liking her right now... BUT honestly you're better as one of my friends that I don't like ...than most people's best friends... it's a weakness I have..ArGH!!!!
So anyways... about 10:45 she calls and asks if daughter is awake???? did you see the time? Are you drunk?????? then she starts talking to me about how rough her week is going.... and about this great opportunity in our new destination and about how great our daughter is....
I told her she is great at what she does, our daughter is a gem and kind of just supported her......
wanted to ask why aren't you calling the dude in that other state about this????
We talked for an hour??? crazy... She told me she cleaned all the toilets and the house before the inspector came. She then asked why I let the home inspector leave the oven open with the light on. Said that all the lights were on and it was going to cost her $50 ..... I told her that the inpsector didn't notice she cleaned the toilets so I pointed it out and that she probably cleaned the ove for him too..see check it out and I opened the oven door.... She laughed
and I said have to go now..... WTH???????????????????/
My life was so much simpilar 7 months ago... not better - just simpler......
But there is a beautiful 8 year old on the couch who loves me!!! that's worth a million! If I can just get over that collasping feeling??????????????
