Thanks for your insight. I hear what you are saying, really I do. And even though my posts may not illustrate it, I am detaching and dealing with the reality of what's happening. Just the fact that I can listen to music again is one step. I'm also less distraught in general, and have gone several days without breaking down and crying, which is a big step for me.
I haven't given up and won't give up - that is my promise to God - but I also will not be broken by this, and I will make it through whatever happens.
