Just when I'm feeling about as low as I can about our SL, Mrs. Cinco surprises me. Last night she initiated some genuine snuggling with me. This is very rare as I am the one who initiates any kind of touching like 99.999% of the time. So anyway one thing leads to another and we ended up ML.
Just when I least expect it she does what I have been dreaming of. She really enjoyed our togetherness and was so much into what we were doing (position #1 and missionary are fav's for us as well as some ML side by side with lots of kissing). Even better was when we both climaxed, she didn't leap up to get dressed and go to sleep. We laid together in each other's arms and cuddled for a long time afterwards.
I wrote a note, to give her tonight, telling her how much I enjoyed last night and how it is what I had been dreaming about and hoping for. That our love would only continue to grow with many more nights like this one and even better ones.
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All I can think of is that has changed is that I have stopped trying so hard. It has taken the pressure off of her and she can relax into me. Only when I had dropped the rope and stopped pulling so hard did she feel right with me. Even the way that I turned down chore-sex Saturday. It didn't matter to me whether we ML or not, I didn't care one way or the other.
Maybe she is just so happy that her crappy job is ending? I'm happy and baffled at the same time. Gosh I hope this lasts. My attitude has changed this year. I'm not resentful and angry any longer. Maybe she sees that I really do want for us to have a happy life together.
That is all I have ever wanted for us, to be happy in our life together.
