I know where you are in this process because I was there. A very humbling experience for sure. It's hard to overcome those wussie feelings especially when one of the complaints from ex was that I wasn't sensitive enough. Well hell no, I'm not as sensitive as some, but so what? Is that a bad thing? I cried once fer gawd sakes! I think I sang a Berry Manilow song one time to when I was drunk.
Nothing wrong with hope unless it's not tempered with realistic expectation. That's what burns so many here. They get frustrated and usually end up sabotaging themselves. I see it all the time. This isn't a science with a cause and effect scenario. Let it play out on it's own terms. Follow the DB principals but allow yourself some wiggle room. Not every situation is the same even if it sounds the same. And boy, doesn't it sound like the same story on here. You can't control some things no matter what behavior you display towards W.
Your choice, but those love songs and looking for signs isn't going to deliver your M. Not to presume God's plan for anyone, but I believe he test us sometimes. In my case, he definitely didn't give me any answers or signs but I think I learned allot of things just the same. I hope it was his will for me to learn. Totally different perspective on life, love, and priorities since going through this experience.
It isn't a total loss even if your M doesn't survive. In many respects, you gain new and positive influences in your life. It's true where doors close, new ones open. I use to think that was some corny line to make myself feel better, but I absolutely believe in it now. Keep the faith in yourself and you won't go wrong no matter how things end up.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
