Handsome- I think we can probably get tickets around Christmas. Wouldn't it be fun to go. shallwe plan to?
Al- thanks for the Marmite advice, although the texture of the trail is slightly putting me off now too!
I'm not sure I'm being 'good old Lisa' in the hope that he'll come back. I really think it's too late for that and it's not going to happen because he obviously doesn't want the D and yet did/does nothing about it. I can't see him having a last minute change of heart/getting up the gumption to say anything, whatever I might do. The reason I see him and don't do 'dark' is that I think we have a nice friendship and that's really a good outcome for me. I don't want to go back to nothing and then build up the interaction again to achieve friendship again..... Also, we have had no contact for at least 10 weeks at a a time, and at the end of that he said he thought I didn't want to speak to him any more but it still didn't occur to him that the reason he was upset was because he misses me and wants me in his life.
I also didn't start the D as a DB technique- I initiated it because I felt ready to move on and that I'd done everything I could to save the M. I really believe I have and I don't regret how I've carried myself during the S- you should see my solution journal, and I think I've been more than patient with H. I just think it's sad that it didn't work out the way I thought it would on the day of the wedding..... Still, sometimes things don't work out how you think they will and you have to move on, even if it's sad to do so. That's where I am now. I should probably move to 'surviving' but maybe when the nisi papers come.
Today I went shopping and bought this top. It looks very Fallon Carrington on- I really like it! And also has some sexyish holes down the arms that reveal my shoulders. I'm wearing it to the office tomorrow.
so, CEO update for today.....today he sent me a message saying he wouldn't be in until after lunch (we usually have a restaurant lunch together if he's in). When he arrived he came bounding over to me and we had the following conversation
CEO: How are you? Me: I'm good thanks. But I'm starving- I haven't had lunch for 2 days (laughing- that's how long it's been since we went for lunch together) CEO: Oh no, really? What do you do for lunch when I'm not here? Do you just go by yourself? Me: Sometimes- it depends. I'm never by myself because even if I go alone the waiters usually descend on me. Or I go with the guys from (old office) CEO: Really? Do they ask you? Or you just bumped into them by accident? Me: Oh, they ask. CEO: What as a group? Or individually? Me: Individually. CEO: Just one? or all of them? Me: More than one of them CEO: But they're idiots. Do you go? Me: I haven't yet. Only the hottest of hot men get to take me to lunch. (At this point I dropped my gaze to his chest and hips and then looked up at him again) CEO: Then you shouldn't let them take you. Me: Well, if you're not here......(and then I laughed and said I had to work)
A couple of hours later I needed to speak to him about a work issue so I asked if I could call him tomorrow as he was originally planning to be at home. He said he'd decided to come in and that we were going to lunch. He'd even put it in his diary (so cute)- 'lunch with My Lady'.
Mwahahahahaha!!!
I also got the quote on my kitchen from the studly plumber today- I think I'm going to use him after all because his quote was much more comprehensive than the original guy, and his friend the kitchen guy looked and sounded just like Vernon Kay. Al- good story about your builder- I'll be careful to make sure that doesn't happen to me. I'd have died of embarrassment!
