So I'll start by saying that we have been seperated since Nov.08 I moved out on Jan 1 09. She filed for D and I countered. I have asked a couple of time if she would want to work on us, but she still has no feelings for me, and asks as if she would only be bothered if i died because she would loose the money i give her. I can not believe after 17 years that someone could hate someone so much.
I have tried dating since I have been told it was over, and there was absolutly no way we would ever make it. the dating has not worked at all. I am still in love with her. I just end up thinking about her and that just makes me mad. I have been very nice to her and also been working on getting my own life.
so my question is how do I get over her and heal the pain and the loneliness. When I have my kids it's fine cause they are with me, but when I have to come home to a quiet apartment it just makes me so sad. the silence is so loud.
I realize that the women that I have been talking to are just to fill the hole in my heart, and that is not fair to them or me. so I have taken a step back for now.
