d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Fixer said to maybe try some stalling techniques for the divorce but I don't know how to stall anything?? Also he used to be very religious but is lost. Pastor saw H last weekend at H paren't house for a fish fry. Pastor told H he would like to sit and talk with him soon. (pastor has already tried this H cancelled every meeting), well my H just nodded his head to the pastor. I'm sure he won't go. My H used to tell me how much he liked the Pastor and now the other day he told me, I don't care for him. H doesn't care for him because our Pastor doesn't play, he is very straight forwarded (H hates confrontation)

My H just acts like nothing is wrong? I don't bring up any R talks and I try to go with the flow. H texted me yesterday and wanted to come over & bring supper & he wanted to put our daughter to bed. I agreed (even though I hurt, I miss him so much) The 3 of us kneeled by D-4 bed and prayed her bedtime prayer.

He stayed after her bed and watched TV (hunting channel) but then he gave me the remote and said here, you can watch whatever you would like. I thought he was going to leave but he stretched out on couch instead.

Thunderstorm rolled in before 9pm and D-4 Freaked out. Came running out into living room. I tried to put her back to bed and reassure her but too afraid. H came into her bedroom and laid in her bed with her and talked to her & rubbed her back. I went into living room and listened to them on the monitor. I felt like i was being nosey but didn't care. He was so kind to her telling her that - Daddy's here and it'll be ok.

When is he going to wake up??? When the divorce goes thru he will no longer be by her bed to sooth her or take her riding on the lawn mower or take her to pet our cows. WHY ????

In the beginning of all of this crazy mess I felt sorry hurt, alone, betrayed. Now I feel only sorrow for him. It's almost like he wants to be with us (d-to bed & stays w/me for tv) but yet he still won't give up the impending divorce for 6-29.

I feel like I'm going around in circles and on a roller coaster ride as well. I'm about ready to puke (sorry, trying to find humor)

Thanks to all of you for the suggestions so far, it's so nice to talk