Kev, I have been thinking a lot about the comments especially what I think H would think about me and other men and dating and the kids. I know it MUST bother him but I would think it was a given considering he is going outside of the M, behind my back. I don't know, I guess WAS really are in a fog. I think I have been thinking too hard on what he thinks and not think. I am getting tired of guessing what he is thinking so trying to concentrate on what I am doing and what I have to do to move forward.
My BFF thinks that at some point he will realize the folly of what he is doing but maybe it will be too late. I think so too,I think he is going to stay in the fog until after we have left him all by himself. When he feels the void, a loss, then he will rethink what he has done. But that time maybe too late for us. I am not saying that I will close the door for sure when I leave but that in order to leave it has to take a lot and it is definitely a significant milestone for me.
So it's a catch-22, isn't it. He probably won't reconsider until we have left. But I probably won't turn back after I leave here. Is that where we are heading?
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
