I wish I could post more. These days I only have about a 1 hour window in the evenings and most nights there is something else going on so not much time.
Update:
Saturday night I turned down "chore sex". We ended up going to bed late which happens most Saturdays. When I initiated W said, "We just did something a couple of nights ago. Can you make this quick? It's so late and I'm really tired."
I said, "Never mind then" and rolled over to go to sleep.
W - "Is anything wrong? You aren't mad are you?"
5 - "No, if you are too tired then I don't want to either."
I was disappointed but there is nothing new about that. I've felt this way for so long now. I just went to sleep, a little disappointed but not angry. I don't want to feel that way anymore though. I'm so tired of ML still being the lowest priority.
Mrs. Cinco has been laid off from her job and is overjoyed about that. She does have another job in the works which will be part-time with better hours. Honestly I don't think this will change anything for the R though. She'll be happier which is good so what more can I ask for.
I wish I could say we are actively working on our R but we aren't. We are just settling back into her comfy routine and I'm wishing for passion that isn't there. I don't know what lies ahead. Part of me wants to just walk out and seek what I desire. Another part of me feels the comfort of being with my W whom I know so well and wants to stay and just settle for what I have. Just give up the fight.
Sure we have been ML just about once a week now. It's just a chore still for her and there is no change of that in sight.
