Read the book. Get the book The Five Love Languages and read it. Post often and get ready to do some serious soul searching about your part in the situation. It's going to take a lot of hard work, dedication, and determination on your part. Time to fix the things about you that you know hinder you. You can do it!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."