Thanks T2SP. I am improving. I have not missed a weekend in a while without going out with friends, I just dont post it here. I have been working around the house and getting things in order. I let things go for so long, I didnt have the heart or engry to want to do anything. That is over now and I look forward to each day.
I do however hope my xh wakes up one day and wants to be civil and at least talk to me, like most divorced couples do. His gf is so bitter though, I dont see that happening soon, he is afraid of making her mad. I just dont understand her bitterness toward me, she didnt break us up, he didnt leave me for her. She T2SP, she answered his phone once and said I couldnt talk to him and hung up on me. What would you have done? I dont nothing. At least your h does speak with you and the ow doesnt interfere with that. My xh is controlled by his new gf. He used to answer his phone when we called, but since she moved in, no more of that.
Braveheart, I do know what is happening, I am not blind. I have only been at this for 7 months, so yeah, I do hope he wakes up. I do NOT sit around like you think I do. The problem I have with your posts is you assume too much. Maybe this is because that is what you did, mope around for 2 years, I dont know. For one thing, you are not GOD you cant predict what will happen, so in your post when you said HE WOULD NOT BE BACK, well you dont know that. Yes he may not but I am not waiting on him, I am waiting on GOD. Maybe you just dont understand that. I know you are a realist and that is good. I can be too, but GOD is in control, if you let him be.
I dont know if you are really happy or not, sounds like you may still be bitter. You have a right to be, but remember your words can hurt and push someone over the edge and you dont want that. You need to tone down just a tad in my opinion. BUT that is just my opinion. I appreciate what you are trying to do. Just tone it down a little so people want think you are so mad in your posts. ;\)
Well I am off to go to Church.

Hugs to Everyone,
Renee


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M:42
H:40
S:18
M:20yrs/together 21yrs
Bomb:9/08 ILYBNILWY
Sep:9/18/08 "ow" :25
Filed:11/18/08
D:12/8/08
M:Different 26 yr. old 7/09.
Newborn 4/10