Julia- I realised we'd forgotten the music when I got home! Steven's address is on the website for music returns- might be worth dropping him a line? I can always get it next time we meet. In relation to what Jody suggested in my/mine and H's sitch, it was to be nice and loving towards him, to be patient and let him know I was there, to be fun and upbeat, and to be very very patient because he's dealing with shame and guilt and it was going to take him a long time to work through it. I agree with her assessment- he definitely feels guilty and ashamed and I'm sure he doesn't actually want the D. If I was 10 years younger..... with CEO, I couldn't have asked him for a drink as I was going to the concert and he was on his way to the Lakes for a stag. Next time!
Al- if I'd asked him why he was asking me he'd have legged it! No R talks when you're on the verge of eliciting a pursuit!! I'd also say that things aren't as simple as 'having feelings for H' or not 'having feelings' for him, or having feelings for H vs having feelings for CEO. Being unavailable to H or him feeling like he's losing me wouldn't work- I've tried that, and it just cements his feelings of guilt and losing me being exactly what he deserves... I love that about snogging H saying something about my feelings for CEO- I think it would be possible for me to snog a man without having feelings for him/while having feelings for another man. Not that I would do that but it really made me smile- cheating on CEO by snogging H! Chance'd be a fine thing, on either front
Handsome- I wish you'd pursue me
K- point taken. I tried being soft with him yesterday and got an interesting reaction- he went into protective mode, but I think maybe I wasn't doing 'soft' that well. I'll keep trying!
LovelyFriendOfBeautifulMelonsAndYogaGoddess- it's lovely to see yu. How are things? I wish you could have been at the concert too. It would have been so fun to go out on the town afterwards, and there was a tenor soloist who was super-hot to look at too!
Michelle- great to see you! I do think my life is a bit like a soap-opera at the moment. I can't wait to see what might happen myself
No news from H yet this week- I think he's doing touch and go's to see where I am and then disappearing. I can't remember for sure but I seem to remember reading that crisis guys do that a bit.
CEO got his hair cut today- we had quite a long discussion about what style he should get and I was relieved to see he didn't have too much of it off in one way, but disappointed too as I nearly touched it yesterday at lunch, it looked so good! Those 'pro-flirting with CEO-ers' reading will be pleased to hear that I managed to tell him his hair/he looked hot 3 times today and he was ridiculously pleased by it each time. So funny.
Yesterday evening I went out with a couple of the girls from my new office for dinner and a really hot guy on the next table was giving me the eye throughout the evening. It was nice until I spotted the ring on his finger and that made me so mad. I was almost tempted to get his number so I could call his wife and warn her, because it'll only take an unscrupulous and loser-ish OW type to ensure he falls down the slippery slope. And of course he shouldn't have been behaving like that in the first place. In the end we just left the restaurant, although one of the other girls actually wanted to go and give him a piece of her mind for eyeing me when he's married. That would have been funny!
Out shopping tomorrow evening with a GF and I might have lunch with some of the guys from my old office building on Friday. Tonight a couple of builders came round to quote on the plumbing work I want done. One of them was really pretty- is it wrong to select a builder on the basis of how pretty he is? He'd be very nice to look at for the week that the work will take, but I guess that'll be no consolation if he does a bad job!
