Orchid,

Starting is the first thing. I will be honest. I started off okay...well maybe not okay but... after 2 months I came here and am not sure whether coming here helped my PMA or not. Coming here, I saw people making progress and it gave me hope. That hope I think in some ways set me back. BUT... coming here also made me a better person. If I would have just walked on I would have never learned some of the things I have.

There is a ton of advice here from people. And good advice.

I will share an aspect of my life with you. A few months into my situation my daughter's spring break came up and I had promised to take her somewhere. We went to Disney because that is somewhere I had told her I would take her this year. It was hard. One minute I was having a blast and the next all sorts of thoughts were pouring through my head. It is tough to get up and go do it...no matter what it is. BUT I would not give up that trip with her for anything now. I am so glad I made my self get up and go.

Point is plan to do something and go do it. even if you are wishy washy on it. Plan Something with someone else even if that something else is the other person's interest..it will help. And in a few you will feel stronger and stronger.... then you can make decisions based on what you want.

It's tough but if you want inspritation look at other's posts. I'm poster child for undecided and disfunctional but check out threads like Kevin's and others. You can see the strength come back. That will help you stay the course but it all starts with getting up and doing it. Plan it and do it \:\)

Plus read the posts and pick a strategy that you can try.

Good luck and hang in there... you have people rooting for you!


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