I guess fatigue affected me alot yesterday. Just a small bit more hopeful today. Had a good lunch/walk with H. I had therapy this morning and I think after that I detached emotionally a bit before seeing H, which helped. Did a lot of validating and just listening today.

My C wondered if H had the affair because he felt he wanted out and didn't know how to get out-not sure how that fits into a MLC, but that idea hadn't really occurred to me.

The girls have a musical performance tonight so H and I will sit together. H mentioned getting together for our 'fun" dinner- I didn't..I'll let him work out the details. Things feel so much more calm when I can emotionally detach-just not sure how to keep it going..


M44 H46 T21 Married 16y
D14 D12
Bomb 12/08(EA), (PA/Separation)1/09 to 5/09
Home/MC 5/09 to 12/09
Leaves 12/09 Files for Divorce
Divorce final 6/30/10.