Mdoodles, thats exactly why I wasnt going to open it. I didnt want to keep trying to fix our friendship if it was pointless. I knew that it would hurt if I saw her number on there, but I thought that maybe finding out for sure now would be better. I waffled ALOT about it, and finally on a whim I ran out to the car and looked.

Future, Its amazing how similar most of these situations are. You can almost predict what someones WAS is going to do and say next. I have had a hard time learning to not ask questions that I dont want to know the answers to, and then figuring out which ones I do need the answer to, even if I wont like it.

Karen, I am afraid that if I try to tell him about my deal breakers, he'll bolt. I dont think that hes interested in being my H right now. But on the other hand hes not interested in D right now either. I dont think that he knows what he wants. I dont want to dredge up something that would only cause further harm. I think that Im at a point right now that I might be able to walk away right now, more than at any other point in this whole nasty thing.

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...