WAW/Affair Exposed - Advice? #3

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D1 was finished eating when I went to see her this morning. She was drinking milk from her sippie cup, and I picked her up and carried her into the nursery. She started walking behind a rocking chair, and peeking out and smiling and saying "DADA" and then going back behind it. She was very talkative this morning - gibberish mostly - but she seemed pretty convincing when she sees me and starts saying "Da Da" quite a bit. I picked her up and held her, and she rested her head on my shoulder. I discussed a few things with the daycare worker, and D1 kept looking at her, then leaning against me smiling, then leaning back up, then back against me smiling. The daycare worker said "I see you loving on your daddy." I handed D1 to the worker when it was time to leave, and when I said "bye bye" D1 started crying and reaching out to me. The worker said "I forgot we weren't supposed to say the 'b' word."

Reflecting on yesterday - I hate the situation I'm in. I think the only way the hearing could have gone better yesterday was if W had shown up and exploded Perry Mason-style on the stand. Even still - as good as I've laid out my long-term strategy there will be a sort of sadness because I am grieving the loss of my relationship, as well as the loss of relationships I had built with her family.

W's legal strategy appears to have collapsed, and the "defense" made against my allegations and motion appeared to be disorganized and petty, and I'm not sure this attorney is used to operating on defense when she is representing the Plaintiff. Meanwhile I've got several more areas to start hitting (with righteous indignation since they attempted to hit those same areas first) and a plan B in mind should our motion fail.

I'm not sure if it is a good sign or a bad sign, but I was listening and observing impassively everything that transpired in court - with little concern how things ultimately turned out this round. I do have faith that things will turn out as they should in the end regardless.

The judge seemed very sharp and attentive to detail, organized, straightforward, and able to see through b.s. of the stand-in attorney quite nicely. I liked him, and although I didn't get the opportunity to speak (my attorneys made an oral motion for him to rule based on my affidavit since W didn't show up and never filed a response), he at least knows I cared enough to show up, and was organized enough to have all the evidence there.

I'm not sure when we'll hear something on an order, but I imagine it will be this week. I'm meeting with my IC tomorrow, hoping to work out my emotions a bit and explain my thought process and the events of the week.