So today, our anniversary: W had talked about taking the boys to their swimming lesson today instead of me and asking me to pick them up on Wed instead. That would have meant that I would not see her at all today. I put the flowers and gift on the island in the kitchen in the morning just in case she would stop by. From work, I called her cell which she did not answer, so I left a message wishing happy anniversary and that I would really like to take the boys to swimming and that I can still pick them up tomorrow from school also. Didn't hear back anything for a while. While I was on a bike ride during lunch, she texted me saying she dropped off the boys' swim stuff at the house and some incense she had bought for me. I saw the text 45 min after she sent it, when I got back from my ride. Went back up to the office before I would reply, another text comes in. Maybe she can leave a little earlier from work so we can all go out to eat together? Together with the 1st text, I assume she's gotten the voicemail. I text back that sounds great! She texts that she will let me know when she's leaving work. We text about some other stuff after that.
After we get back from the pool, W calls and says she's had to stay later at work and she's picking up some chinese and what would I like. She gets to the house and I give her the flowers and gift. She seems happy and hugs me, then she says at least she got me incense and some good food. Later, it turns out she never got my voicemail, well, probably got it but didn't listen to it. She said she missed a bunch of calls and hadn't listened to the messages yet.
It's just so easy to feel dissappointed after some good things happen. I just want it to continue and start expecting things. And then, it's again a one way street... It took me a couple of hours after she had left to get over the feeling of dissappointment, followed by anger... etc... you all know the drill! I did not let any of these frustrations get the better of me, but I had to really concentrate. Now, I am back to my normal self, just not expecting anything out of the ordinary. We do have a concert planned on Friday and I have a saling regatta this weekend that I am racing with a new sailing buddy I met a couple of months ago!
