You need to own what you have done to cause her to walk away. Her sleeping with another man is her demon to bare, but you need to accept that you have some culpability in her decision to get there. I'm not saying you should blame yourself for her having an affair, because she did not have to do that, but somewhere down the line your ability to communicate broke down. Own your mistakes and change yourself. Right now I see blame from you about her cheating. She blames you for making her cheat. Cheeseless tunnels you are going down.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
