I'm willing to bet that you were not her first. Do not even go down the path of thinking about her with him. It will do you no good. What does he do that I don't? What does he have that I don't? You will never be that man. You can't be. You can only be you, but when you are you be the best you you can be. Know what I mean? I am learning that I do not want to be the woman that my husband is with. Hell, to be honest she has been trying to be me for as long as I can remember (think Single White Female). I was the one who forgot who I was. I changed and became the person with low self esteem, clingy, needy, and didn't validate his feelings like I did before. I don't choose to be a thing like her. I choose to be the me I was before I got lost with some added knowledge and life experience. And I will SHINE!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
