I typed that before I found out about the other woman and funny that I hadn't gone back and read it. At first, I wanted to think that it didn't apply any more because the affair changed things in my mind. Now, I realize it is still the core of why he left. Regardless of how he chose to do it. I don't want to go back to being the person I was. Which is why I wrote him the apology letter after I freaked out on him. I do wish that he would have had the strength to walk away without having back up, but that is proof that he is only so strong. I do wish him happiness. I do still love him, but I have always known that I could live without him. I'm a life in progress, but as long as I continue to learn from my mistakes and continue to try, I will never be a failure.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
I'm a life in progress, but as long as I continue to learn from my mistakes and continue to try, I will never be a failure.