"No news on H. We had a minor "fight" on the phone last night. I was upset he didnt call me all day and he was "what's wrong, tell me what's wrong"....
... I only said "would you be able to help me if I told you whats's wrong?". He said dont be aggressive, I replied I am not, I am just fed up and ended the call..."
But he asked you what was wrong, thats a good thing at least! Did it have to come out as a negative or not at all, could you not have turned this to a positive? Instead of going into hackles up mode.. what are you not giving me/doing for me.. and getting mad or fed up with him, could you have just said..
I miss you, I love you, I wish you were here so I could snuggle up in bed with you, I cant wait to see you...
???
I've been saying it for ages, but you wont do it..you've got to take that damn wall down! It isnt going to take itself down, its up to you (and dont suppose H is going to dismantle it for you either). Or, stay behind your wall and H behind his??
Why wont you at least try? You sure are stubborn, as you said to Lisa this week!
I only suggest this because you must still love him/want him on some level K, because you also said
