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Thanks for the shouting! I didn't call H but I did text last night asking what the password for the computer network is (as I was trying to set up laptop and didn't know password). He text back and asked if I had nice weekend.

One thing I know I need to do more work on is my listening and communication. I had been doing better but noticed last week that I was interrupting and not really listening. So that is one goal.

I do find it hard to think about my own good points, I guess bc I have been feeling low and had my self esteem smashed bc of whats going on. I will work on this. So I will have a go: I think I am funny, friendly, supportive, looking better and better lately. ok a short list, but a start.

What I want that will make me better? I want to...
learn to communicate better
have more fun, be more spontaneous
not be as critical of myself/others/situations
not get angry over the little things that don't matter
stop complaining so much!
be more decisive (this is a hard one for me!)

I think I go between holding on too tightly to R and starting to let go. This week I def have been sucked back into holding on too tightly. Mostly I feel this is a reaction to H telling me about EA with OW and that he doesn't know what he will decide to do. bc since then I just keep thinking I need to know what he has decided and want to ask. I can see this reaction and I know I need to stop it. However, I want to know how he decides to handle the sitch bc I do not want to continue to be friendly with H if he decides to continue.

I do not HAVE to be friendly with H at this time. You are right, I don't want to know about the present, don't know why he felt he had to tell me this. Next time something like this happens I will say I don't wish to hear/discuss this and end it.

Thanks for the response I appreciate the support & wise words