Let me clarify. I'm not talking about saying it to WAS, I am talking about feeling it and living it...

It is a tough call and believe me, I struggle with it too. If H thought I was moving on would he draw closer or just be relieved? I do know that anytime I have so much as thought "I'm going to live my life and I will love another man and create the family life I want with someone else..." I get a text or a call or some attention from H. I am talking about KNOWING that I am going to be ok and that he is not in control of my happiness or ability to live my values. And, I can tell you, I have only felt it for fleeting moments. I have no idea what would or will happen if I can sustain that feeling.