W called me at work this morning - because she recieved an email i sent to her by mistake - mistyped email address. She wanted to know what it was about - nothing bad it was more of just a journal that I've been writing to help keep my head straight. She wanted to know who it was supposed to go to - explained to her me, then she started saying oh a journal to use in court? No a journal to help me better myself - I then explained to her that I do not want to go to court, that i am trying to R our M and be a better person - all she would say to me is I can never forgive you completely or look at you the same. I reassured her feelings that she was right and I wasn't looking for complete forgiveness, and that I was looking to be a friend with her. I then asked her if we could discuss this at a later point in time when neither of us was at work, and she said there is nothing to discuss. That we will be getting a D. I said I know, your mind is set, and you won't give me a chance to prove that I can change. She simply said people don't change - and that she has given me too many chances and tired of trying to keep everything together between us from the start. I simply answered that people can change, and now I am the one that is trying to save the marriage and I wish I had seen the problems in the past - maybe I would've been smart enough to change sooner. Biggest regret right now that I have is that it took her leaving to see that all along, the problem is me and that I do need to change to be a better person.
Me 35 W 30 S 3 M 7 : T 13 yrs Separated 2/20/09 My Story
