Game Over?

[dday101798]

Essentially she seems to deny the entire situation as a whole, like 'hey or marriage doesn't work so this does and it's okay'. I truly honestly don't know.

As said, in our last few conversations she will be warm and inviting to the notion of working to be friends, then partially freezes and says "wait, we can't be friends because when we tired before, you'd be fine one day then hate me the next". To which I scknowledge and say 'I don't nor have ever hated you, but it was really hard to try and "be friends" with my WIFE who goes home to someone else'. And she just never has nor does understand the concept of how ackward that is.

Well, here we are today, we will no longer be married, and I've done my work, so why not try now and make all this in any way easier on the kids? Am I prepared to have barbeques with this guy? Heck no. But fact of the matter is, she is his, and he is hers, nothing I can do about that.

I had to convey to my attorney this morning my thought that perhaps she is having 'second thoughts'. He and her attorney have been playing a very expensive game of phone tag and he gets the feeling that something else is going on, and if I would be able to talk to her directly.

For some reason, now, after Mother's Day she will not speak to me at all. I had taking the boys to the cemetary in the morning to her mothers grave before returning them to her for the day. That seemed to really strike a chord for some reason. No one else had been there, the headstone was all covered up. I told her that I and the boys layed down some white carnation I grew in my garden for the occasion. Not sure if that's it or not.

I had spoke with S12 last night and he was excited because she finally retrieved a train set I had bought him for Christmas from "our house". Shortly after, I sent her a text thanking her for doing so (it really upset him and it was expensive). No reply.

I also sent her a text this morning at my attorney's request to ask if she were working (with the intent to talk). No reply.

Other than the cemetary, all I do know is that when I asked the kids what they got her for mother's day, they said, "OM was supposed to take us and he forgot". Oops, not my problem.