UPDATE: Weirdness continues. Last night she came over for dinner per our agreement. I almost feel like I can't breathe. I need some space from her I think.
We had a bottle of wine before dinner (neither of us can drink). She became talkative but also very defensive and offensive. Weird. She was upset at some changes I've made to the yard ( planted a few plants) and some of the changes in the bedroom (she took the tv, so I put a plant where it was). She was reading into things (paying hyper close attention to every word - dangerous) and thought I was excluding her from a project for my daughter where we have to put some pictures together for her upcoming confirmation. I assured her on both counts that it's not what she's saying, but she didn't really want to hear that. She mentioned that her brother thought I looked gaunt and said that she told him it was just stress and that I could blame her for that too. I told her I don't blame her and I haven't lost much weight. Nothing to worry about.
Later, on the patio she started telling me that she wished her husband had the stones to be the one to leave. I assured her that her husband has great big stones. She didn't want to hear that either. It wasn't rough conversation, but playful conversation mostly. She wants to take the kids to the museum this weekend, but was concerned because originally she was going to be out of town at a conference but canceled it. She was worried because it is "my" weekend with the kids and she wasn't sure how that would play out. She asked if I wanted to go as well (I'm thinking it may be because she wants to spend time with the kids but feels guilty not inviting me; too much thought on my part I think).
We watched a couple of favorite shows after dinner with the kids and when she left I sent her home with some leftovers.
She seems to have a heavy heart. I suspect she feels really guilty about leaving the kids. I'm not sure her feelings towards me, but cautious comes to mind.
I still need some space
Later, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
