Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

nc~ I won't be a stranger... doc if you could send my nc email address.. I changed it so I lost some of my stored addresses.. thanks

AND I love you too, you guys are my rock when I need it. I'm still really struggling with all of this, I have my lows and highs, as I did before. Im trying not to take it out on anybody, but im just still very very hurt.

It feels like someone is ripping my heart out all over again.

I spoke to my dr. today and she is going to get me a name of a therapist that is pro marriage. So then I will start calling when I get a couple of names.

One thing I did decide is that Even though its difficult, im going to start getting out with my friends alone and enjoying some me time. Yes, some of that needs to be with H, but I also need time for myself, and I guess it took all of this to realize it.

Im so "attached" to the relationship that i don't have anything for me, I need to have that in order for me to feel better in my mind and be a better mommy to my kids.

I will be by from time to time, just not as frequently. Checking up on my friends doc,nc,sara,jojo(although we talk on the phone), saffie, lwb, yoyo...

take care xxoo