It's hard to type your name as it's my ex bestfriend husband's new GF's name. I feel you. I spent so much time and effort getting my husband here from Canada. I worked even when I was recovering from brain surgery. I tried the best I knew how to make him happy. I have since learned that I can't make anyone happy other than myself. He is the one who will have to face himself in the mirror one day when he wakes up and the fog has lifted. It will happen. Whether I will still be there remains to be seen.
It is hard losing not just your husband but the person you told everything to. How do you go to bed one night curled up next to someone and have them tell you the very next day that they aren't in love with you anymore? It baffles the brain.
You will find happiness again. You just have to open your heart up for it. Whether it is with him or not. Happiness is something you must seek out for yourself. You will find it!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
