Thankyou so much for your support and the post; it means so much at times like this. yes, I have to find a strength in me that is going to sustain me through this.It is so hard because i have no choice if i honour myself and my family; especially my daughter. I miss his family who are now obviously not speaking to me at all. I ams truggling with the fact that i am not the sort of person that would ever think about doing this to anyone; yet he has forced my hand; for my own dignity and respect and for what i believe to be the safety and welfare of my child and myself/family.
yes, he hasnt always been in my life........but he has for the last ten years and has been, or so I thought, my best friend and my husband. I guess i am reeling, like many others who come here, how you think that you know a person but you never do. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that he would betray us in this way. We have had struggles and conflict in our marriage but my marriage was a serious enterprise for me and I believe in love as a verb, as an action. I believe in hard work. He obviously believed in the first thing that came along that validated him away from that commitment. Yes, I am loving my daughter as best as I can, and I am trying to love myself. I have come along in leaps and bounds and I am going to be a better person because of this.
