Is this six months from it's beginning or from it's outing? They both keep insisting that they were just friends. I refuse to get mired down in all the BS. I have admitted my mistakes in the relationship and am working on being a better person. I did have my huge blowup, but good god who wouldn't finding out your husband has been lying to your face for months texting your bestfriend after you had told him it was inappropriate. That she has been lying to your face saying that she hasn't heard from him. She is telling you about her new panties and polka dot dresses she is buying. Rubbing crap in your face without you knowing that is what she is doing. UGH! I am so better than this. I deserve better than this from the both of them. I go from never wanting to see him again to wanting a better relationship with him. Right now, all I know is that I am being as dark as I can be. I refuse to stoop to their level. I am the better person. When their relationship blows up in their faces, they will have no one to blame but themselves.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
