Well, it has been days since I posted and still days since I have spoken to H. Last physical contact was during the blowup. Did take him the mail and left him the book. Wrote an apology by email. Saw OW's car at the gym on Saturday and have since decided to go the long route to work to avoid seeing said vehicle. It's hard for me to realize that it's over. He hasn't filed, but that is just because he doesn't have the money to. I called his mom on Mother's Day and wished her a happy day. Have so many plans to take care of and get to working on.

Time to stop hoping and just start doing. \:\) Any advice is great. Any words of encouragement will be highly appreciated.

Anyone ever been so dark as to have no contact at all? The kids we shared are mine and he gave them up.

"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."