Thanks for checking up on me. I am just being quiet, reading threads, reading success stories. As someone so eloquently labeled their post I am trying to stay on the smooth road, so to speak. I was way behind on work projects so I have also been very busy this past week.
IF YOU HAVE NOT CALLED YOUR H YET, DON'T. Sorry for shouting but DON'T. It gets easier with time. Trust me. You need to get to a point where you stop obssessing about what he is doing and who he is with.Not easy, but you can do it! Focus on your grad work. Focus on you.
What makes you an utterly fantastic person that any man would be proud to claim as his wife? Remind yourself of your worth. We are spending too much time focusing on them and what we may lose. What do you have? What makes you great? What do you want that will make you better? As another DBuster eloquently put it "Do Work". On yourself because you can't work on anyone else. Leave them to work on themselves. It will take time but don't give up. This is a birthing process for the new you and hopefully a new M. Anything related to birthing has some degree of pain but it is worth it.
Don't try to hold on too tightly to your R. I am living by Let Go and Let God. I find that when I hold on tightly I am trying to control the sitch and H but I really can't. I am just deluding myself and making us miserable in the process. Is this how it is for you? Letting go helps me to breathe easier and analyse things without a run of emotions. It allows me to detach.
