Healing from a lifetime of self-deprecation

[still hopeful]

Hello all,

I haven't been posting much lately because of the fact that I've finally put to use the advice of so many on this board, which is to let go of my marriage that's ended, let go of my XW who is my EX, not my wife, let go of my need to feel in control of my situation in which I've never been in control and to concentrate on myself and getting my life in order for me and my children. I'm doing that. Putting one foot in front of the other in an arena in which I have complete control over one aspect, which is my input or effort.

I never knew how easy my life would become once I took the step I feared most, which was letting go. I feared it most because I didn't want to lose someone who had already divorced me (strange as that my sound), despite the fact that I already knew logically what the likely end result would be. Well, on April 23, I made that leap of faith. A good friend of mine told me,

It's not the letting go that's painful. It's the holding on.

That has certainly turned out to be true for me. I don't know what the future holds for me. I do know this though, letting go has given me a whole new perspective on the my life and my place in the world.

Thank you to frank_D for your friendship and time. I hope we will talk again soon.

Thank you to Phoenixdeux for your lucid and encouraging direction.

Thank you to faithisbelieving for your kindness and insight into who I AM & your thoughts on what patterns I need to shed.

FIB, I'm making good progress into the light of the abundance mentality. I look forward to reading No More Mr. Nice Guy soon.