BM, thanks. H has varying views of how our sex life was depending on what day you ask him. One of his comments still stings, and maybe that is part of why it just doesn't feel important to try to seduce him anymore. I did notice him looking at my cleavage this weekend when my bathrobe came loose. Ooops, haha lol.
Put another notch in my belt if your keeping score or counting babysteps. H spent another night in our bed with me on his own accord. It's been over a month since we've had any physical touch of any kind after I quit hugging him when he had a very hurtful action one morning. This is the first time he came to me. Usually I've caved in and touched or hugged first but maybe I am finally done being hurt so many times and H can come to me.
The rest of the weekend went very well. H joined a lesson I was giving and helped out (took over) with it. The lady was having trouble getting her horse to go but then when it got scared and went she pulled back to stop the horse. It was very enlightening to hear H say over and over 'it has to be okay to go in order to be safe to stay'. Apply THAT to a MLC WAS.
H was also home enough to receive compliments from 2 different folks about what a nice place he has. We also talked about some things that need to be worked on. I am getting help from a guy that is laid off. I asked about a certain project and said I'd like this guy to work on it unless H would have enough time. I didn't say it in a mean way, but it looked like H's face flinched with pain when I said it.
Seems I have to find balance between getting the things done and not hurting H's feelings. How do I do that when I've been waiting on some of these things for many years already? Proceed with caution I guess.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
