New to all of this

[In Limbo]

M25,

Listen to Sandi - she's awesome, very wise and will tell you what you need to hear, even if it's not what you want to hear. You'll get lots of good advice here and you'll find it helps you to reflect before you act.

Sounds like you are doing a lot of good stuff. One thing I have found very difficult with H still in the house is to not read into every little thing. It sounds like that's what your H is afraid you will do. The only thing you really can do is show him you are not reacting to every little thing he does or does not do. The whole "lovingly detach" thing is so hard but so important for you. Something else you might find helpful in dealing with the emotions (I'm a big crier sometimes and it just sets my H off) is to write letters spelling out how you feel. Letters to H or even to God letting it all out - but DON'T send them, just hold them, reread them in a day or two and you'll probably find you're ready to tear them up. Never send them, of course.

Hang in there. Lots of great folks here to help you.