MLC Maybe?

[Jerri]

I just think my situation is hopeless. My H is gone - I no longer exist in his world - he's been totally drawn back into LI family and OW (not that he ever really left his family).

I just can't see any point in even trying to save my marriage - I can't do it alone. Just very depressed this morning and I'm tired of having all the "would of, could of, should of's" whirling around in my head.

In some ways I do want to move on - forget him - I'm getting close to hating him for what he has done to me, our marriage, our children - but I still keep clinging to the faint hope that he will "wake-up". I know that I'm the only one that can decide what I want - but I'm tired of this indecision.

Easy to say "do nothing" but I'm not a do nothing kind of person.
I want my marriage back, I want my husband back but somehow I don't think I'm going to get what I want. So why the hell am I still trying?