Just know that you are not alone in those thoughts. This came to me in a moment when I was upset with how things are going: Be patient. He wants you too.
So make that fit your situation. Be patient. No one that I know wants to go back to being available to get to do this all over again. But here we are. The one advantage I feel that we have is that we know what we want and we have looked at ourselves to see where we need to make changes.
You are going to be fine.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory