So I finally heard from stbxh for what???? Because (drum roll) he needed something.
I btiched him out. It may not have been the most eloquent manner in which I could have handled it, but it felt good anyway. Then I sent him an email requesting that he no longer contact me. I can't handle talking to him.
You know, I thought I was really getting over this, and I realize that my heart is still breaking. I loved this stupid German so much, and he just stomped all over me. I told him after the way he treated me when K died, he had a hell of a lot of nerve contacting me for anything. I yelled at him, cried, and he told me I was bipolar. And I though how dare you? I have given this almost two years of my life, trying to resolve issues, make changes, give him his space, and he has the nerve to say I am unbalanced? I felt like saying you want to see unbalanced bud???? But I didn't.
Yesterday I did send the email telling him I couldn't talk to him anymore, I couldn't help him anymore, and I would appreciate it if he would just file the Motion to the BK court that I sent so that I could file the divorce (I figure he can pay the filing fee for the motion since I am currently unemployed). I told him not to contact me anymore because I had been hurt enough and I deserved better.
It was like taking a little piece of me back again, and yet it hurts. I cannot figure out why some people seem to think others are just dispensable. _________________________
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
