He came over to work on some things with me on our house since we are getting ready to sell it.
I dont know what came over me but I just blurted out "So how do you feel about being divorced in 2-3 weeks?"
He said "what do you mean, it wont be that fast'
So I said " Yes, the L said that we have already passed the 60 day waiting period, so as soon as we agree on everything we could be D that day"
He stared at me like a deer in headlights. I was prepared for him to be happy but he got a little weird.
Then for the first time in about 5 months I became a little emotional on him. I told him how I felt about the sitch and how it freaked me out. I also told him that I even though he doesnt feel the same, he should know that i have prayed for our M everynight and will always continue to do so....but, that once we are D, things will be different.
Maybe I did some no, no's but hey...im on borrowed time with my health and this M and I didn't feel like holding back.
The point to all this is that while I was talking to him, I was tearing up...while he was listening to me I could see.....he started tearing up to!
My H is not the least bit emotional and has not shown any sadness for our sitch until today. I know it may not mean much but at the very least it made me feel better that he actually showed some emotion. All this time he has been so stone cold.
After that he brought me back to the house and sat and watched TV with me a little bit then he had to go to his mothers house for mothers day....But I kept feeling like he wanted to say something.
When he left he thanked me for lunch and said he would talk to me later.
So now I am just backing off and letting him think. I dont really know what else to do. Ive tried everything at this point..now its up to god.
