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I am glad the weekend is over now and I'll be back busy at work tomorrow. It has been a hard weekend and I have been feeling pretty down but trying not to dwell on it.

I feel like I have 2 options regarding H. I can either stay friendly and try to build from there OR just go dark again and not contact him or be available. I don't know which way to go or if there is a better option. I feel like I need to know more about what H is doing, is he with OW or not? But then I also keep thinking I can't base my decisions on what H is or isn't doing.

I have been thinking more about doing the coaching. It is a lot of money for me so I don't know if I can afford it. I feel like I need to do something tho bc I am getting lost in everything and don't know where to go next with my sitch.

I was also talking to a friend about some counseling tonight. She really recommends it as it helped her in the past. I just don't know who to go with. I am having trouble finding someone in my area and can only find person centred counselors and don't know if this is right for me.

Is it worth discussing the OW issue with H again at this point to see if he's made any decisions? Or is it better leaving it for the time being? I wish I had some answers.