Today I de-personalized the house a little more. Switched up our dish set that we picked out together for another set I've been storing. Went through the bedroom and boxed up the last of H's things and tossed what I could. Found a pile of cards he had kept over the years (anniversary and v-day cards from me and/or the kids) and I put those away.
I guess I just feel like I need to change up the spaces in the house more. It doesn't seem like H has any intention of reaching out to me. The LRT isn't getting any reaction from H, unless I'm overlooking something. No texts or calls. Did have lunch Tues but it was small talk and bills, and I still think he only wanted to meet in order to tell me something else about his situation - either with OW or something different. But no indication he wanted to meet just to see me. Maybe I should be doing something different, but what?
FIL said that H mentioned to him that he was glad I was taking care of myself. Not sure what that means... but is that a reaction to LRT or just trying to find some peace with his decisions?
But regardless, I am taking good care of myself and feeling much better. Still cry sometimes, like when I was looking for some photos of the kids for my FB page, b/c H was such a part of our lives; but mostly I'm feeling pretty decent.
Lots to be grateful for, including two great kids that love me unconditionally. That is a blessing in itself.
